I’ve loved photography and art since I was a kid. As a teenager and in my early 20’s I was the one that always had camera in hand snapping fun photos of what we’d been up to and taking group selfies, hoping and praying that I’d got everyone in the group shot…oh how I would of loved a smartphone back in the late 80’s and early 90’s lol…
I started getting into photography a bit more seriously after my son was born but found I was struggling to find my style. When my son was a toddler we used to go for walks on the local Malvern Hills and I’d take the camera, but I’d have to shoot quickly and move on as my son dashed around the hills which I didn’t find satisfying. As my son grew older I was able to start going out on my own with more time to find something to shoot, however, that wasn’t satisfying for me either and I needed to work out what I wanted from my photography.
In 2015, I was diagnosed with Chronic Myeloid Leukaemia (CML) a rare form of blood cancer, which made me want to express myself through photography or writing. I started to blog about living with cancer but that wasn’t fulfilling me or expressing how I was feeling. So, I turned to the camera and my photography just developed from there and it started to really come together for me in 2018 when Starless and Hold the Dark projects started to emerge.
CML is part of me now and I’ll never know if I would have got to this point in my photography without cancer, but it has directed me into my current style of photography. When it comes to ‘Hold the Dark’ series, all of the flowers are dying, and I’m trying to capture the aspect of beauty. These photos aren’t about me dying as such, because I take daily chemo tablets that suppress all that. But it did get me thinking about death a bit more than normal.
You’ll find most photographers say that they feel emotion when they are taking the photo, for me I don’t feel any emotion or connection when I take my photos, that happens when I process the images and how the colours come out depends how I’m feeling when I’m editing my work. For me it’s all about creating something after I’ve taken the photo, rather than recording something more conventional.
I hope you enjoy what you see and if you ever want a creative chat feel free to contact me